Question of the day

Or question of the morning or of the evening or whatever

Am i really not worth persuing ? (persuing meaning making an effort to get me)

jaja

jaja, hier ben ik weer, en k denk da iedereen ondertussen al wel door heeft wa da wilt zeggen: i'm feeling like shit. in deze editie: de blijkbaar jaarlijkse lentedepressie en onverwacht liefdesverdriet. jaja, ongelooflijk als het lijkt, ik kwam, ik zag, ik werd verliefd en wonder boven wonder t was wederzijds. op zich al een half mirakel, nog verrassender was dat het maar bleef duren. nuja, voor mij wilt da ni bepaald veel zeggen, de langste relatie die ik hiervoor gehad had duurde 10 weken, om maar een idee te geven. ma bon, na drie maanden was k nog altijd even verliefd als in t begin.. misschien zelfs een beetje meer.. maar dan begon alles zowa bergaf te gaan, ni van mijn kant maar van die van hem. dus drie weken - bijna 4 weken - geleden stelde ik De Vraag: "ziet ge mij nog graag" en hij kon ni ja zeggen. dusjah. da was Het Eind. en sindsdien.. nuja.. in de paasvakantie heb k stage gedaan, dus k had ni echt veel tijd om te veel na te denken.. maar nu.. nu k eigenlijk terug gewoon les heb.. krijg k niks meer gedaan. ma echt niks meer. t enige da k doe is filmkes kijken en lezen. naar de les gaan, vergeet t; gewoon buiten iets gaan doen, geen zin in, of sebiet; koken en afwassen, weet ge nog iets.. ik verdoe mijn dagen me niksdoen, k voel me daar enorm schuldig over en k geraak ni in gang om er iets aan te doen. en ik mis hem.. zo hard..

Right

Forgot to mention that I'm currently also feeling pretty bad physically... I've never been ill for this long before (it started last Monday...) Normally it takes me 3 days to get over the worst of it & 4 more days to shake off the lingering feeling of not-well being.. Not this time though.

(I'm not going to mention that I only came home from partying at 7.40am Sunday (or Saturday for me) and that I only slept like 3 hours. It obviously has nothing to do with it. Unbopsibly.)

Once more whining

Yes, I know, I'm always whining when I post here, but well.. that's what it's for I guess..

I got my exam schedule Monday. It looks extremely horrible.. I have 3 exams 4/6, 2 exams 5/6, 4 (yes, FOUR!!) exams 8/6 and a last (lost..) one 18/6. WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH THAT ? OK, I am an exception, it is not a normal curriculum, but does that mean I have to SUFFER like this? Well, at least I'll be rid of them soon..

Next to that comes the realisation that i can't possible pass my German exams. They're too demanding.. Not that I won't try.. Trust me, I will, but well.. chances of actually making it are like.. 0,01 %.. and that's optimistic thinking..

I'm constantly assaulting myself with would haves and should haves, feeling very disappointed with myself. I have no character. No discipline. No desires strong enough for me to do what's needed. Basically, I'm weak. And I hate it. Thoroughly.

I don't want to lose my radio :(

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/me goes boing boing !

In case the title's not enough for you... I'm whiiiiiiii happyyyy for some reason, and actually have been for the last couple of days. You see, no news is good news ;)

/me goes boing boing some more !

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Heroes in a half-shell
Turtle power!

They're the world's most fearsome fighting team (We're really hip!)
They're heroes in a half-shell and they're green (Hey - get a grip!)
When the evil Shredder attacks
These Turtle boys don't cut him no slack!

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

Splinter taught them to be ninja teens (He's a radical rat!)
Leonardo leads, Donatello does machines (That's a fact, Jack!)
Raphael is cool but crude (Gimme a break!)
Michaelangelo is a party dude (Party!)

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Heroes in a half shell
Turtle power!


AND there's going to be an animated movie ! whiiiiii

OK

I've had the worst of the breakdown. The rest will solve itself in time.

Now just hope I don't come down with the flue in the meanwhile...