Right

Forgot to mention that I'm currently also feeling pretty bad physically... I've never been ill for this long before (it started last Monday...) Normally it takes me 3 days to get over the worst of it & 4 more days to shake off the lingering feeling of not-well being.. Not this time though.

(I'm not going to mention that I only came home from partying at 7.40am Sunday (or Saturday for me) and that I only slept like 3 hours. It obviously has nothing to do with it. Unbopsibly.)

Once more whining

Yes, I know, I'm always whining when I post here, but well.. that's what it's for I guess..

I got my exam schedule Monday. It looks extremely horrible.. I have 3 exams 4/6, 2 exams 5/6, 4 (yes, FOUR!!) exams 8/6 and a last (lost..) one 18/6. WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH THAT ? OK, I am an exception, it is not a normal curriculum, but does that mean I have to SUFFER like this? Well, at least I'll be rid of them soon..

Next to that comes the realisation that i can't possible pass my German exams. They're too demanding.. Not that I won't try.. Trust me, I will, but well.. chances of actually making it are like.. 0,01 %.. and that's optimistic thinking..

I'm constantly assaulting myself with would haves and should haves, feeling very disappointed with myself. I have no character. No discipline. No desires strong enough for me to do what's needed. Basically, I'm weak. And I hate it. Thoroughly.