Well it's an incredibly long time since i last used this thing, so long ago i can't even remember when my last post was.. but well, here i am again, and of course because there are some things i have to get off my chest.
For those who happen to read this & don't know me, i'm almost 24 and i've been single for the biggest part of my life, due to different reasons which i won't sum up here (let's just say one of them is that i'm picky.. really really picky ;) )
But anyway, as you might already have suspected, this venting post is about my singleness. I don't mind being single. I love the freedom to do what i want, when i want to do it, with whoever i want to do it with. Basically, i love to be able to make my own choices without anyone interfering and nagging that i'm making the wrong choice or whatever. But unfortunately.. and naturally.. being single has some huge downsides. The one that disturbed me most is the lack of physical contact. I sorely miss sleeping next to someone and waking up next to that person. It's not even about sex, i can deal with a life without sex (well i think at least, i'm doing pretty good so far), i just can't live with the physical solitude which is - in my opinion at least - socially laid down on singles. Can you imagine a friend walking up to you & saying "hi, how are you ? good ? nice ! well, i had something to ask you.. you know, i was just wondering if you'd want to sleep with me tonight, i just don't want to sleep alone for once." ok, i admit, people probably already think i'm a freak, but that doesn't mean i want to go that far. Not to forget about all the "what ifs". What if you happen to ask the wrong person to sleep with you and he/she expects sth more than just sleeping ? which, to be honest, could perfectly well be expected from like about anyone. Ah crap i'm going in circles.. And actually it all comes down to just one question:
Is it really freaky not to want a partner, but just to want someone to sleep next to you?
Sunday, January 07, 2007
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Dear Fruit,
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Its the fact that you want to sleep next to someone, the fact that you want to spend time with someone that makes the two of you a couple.
Imagine sleeping.. You re utterly defenceless.. Isnt it normal that not everyone feels comfortable to just share that with a stranger?
you ll at least need a good friend in that person to be able to just sleep together.
Add male instincts to that equasion and you re bound to have sex popping up in it..
I really think you need some kind of relation with someone. With a man or a woman and certainly not in the conventional way! (unles you d change what you expect of it)
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